Sex is a good way to procrastinate.

procrastinating. had sex with geoff. it was hot, long and all i could think about was my stomach and when he was going to come. his penis is thin...it was best when i clenched my legs behind his back. he was all proud of himself for "going that long"///i wont lie, it is really hot, hes really hot, i definitely enjoy myself or i wouldnt be doing it but its just not amazing. i told him at the end that i wanted to do it standing up next time. hehe. that should be good. need to lose a little more weight for that. okay...a lot more. buuuuttt im going to be down in the city and blah de blah..seeing modeling agencies. idk why but i ate a POPTART and a chocolate piece today. and didnt throw up.
i threw up my berry/skim milk smoothie this morning because i had too much and it would have been pretty easy to just drink some water and throw up that chocolate buttt i didnt. maybe its those endorphins.

ahhhhh i have a big paper due tomorrow and im really procrastinating. seriously. bad. im gonna do it right now. after i go and (hopefully) take a fat shit. ive been drinking "slimming tea" and i took a diuretic today and had coffee and finished my detox bottle i got from target that was in the car and ive felt allll gassy but havent been able to go. fuckk i just want to be as thin as i can for tomorrow!! GOSH I HAVE TO PACKKK AND GET READY!

[edit] i just read all forty sources. go me. i now have no faith in the reporting world. so many discrepancies in the details. yes, they can get the facts right, but one "factual" article to another...they all paint the charecters as either victims of race, or victims of a henous crime and blahhhdeblahhh. i just want this to be over. i just ate chicken with veggies and im full because i went back for seconds. get a grip!