And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy


im on a rilo kiley kick right now. i think im depressed. idk really. it could be a side effect of being so drunk and not really sleeping and eating but throwing up and talking to four guys last night but hanging out with none of them and then losing my phone.

ironically my other phone came today, the same "phone" but the one from ebay that supposedly works and doesnt randomly shut off. my dad was all sorts of angry at me today and while i tried to be the bigger person i did let it get to me and yelled at him. i cant be home and be well. i need help. i realize this., but i dont want t0 go yet. i need to do something