" I can listen no longer in silence. i must speak to you by such means as are within my reach.you pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own, then when you almost broke it eight years and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than women, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust i may have been, weak and resentful i have been, but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone i think and plan.-Have you not seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes?-I had not waited even these ten days, couls i have read your feelings, as i think you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, when they would be lost on others.-Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice indeed. You do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating in
F.W.
I must go, uncertain of my fate;but i shall return hither, or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look will be enough to decide whether i enter your father's house this evening, or never.
ahhh how i wish someone would write something so ellegant for me. however, i have had love letters written to me, that i will post here so i can always read them when im down, which is often enough.
Have you moved on? Can you honestly say that you don't have an ounce of feeling for me? Can you say that when my name appears, whether in writing or speech, nothing happens inside of you? Because that's not true for me. Heather I feel like the biggest idiot for admitting this, and I have tried so hard the past six months to completely forget everything about you, but I can't. I have tried getting to know other girls, seeing what they are about, and when it comes down to it, no one has compared to what I see in you, and that is very disappointing When I saw that you commented on my picture, I was ecstatic. Besides you being a beautiful, awesome, perfect girl, I don't understand my special attraction to you. I thought that having nothing to do with you would work, but "absence makes the heart grow fonder" might be true. I understand if you never want to see me again, if you feel like I am a despicable person, just ignore this message like I have repressed the feelings I have for you, or tell me to grow up and deal. I go on break for a week this saturday, I would really like to meet with you, just to catch up, see where we are, though if you don't want to, I understand. I thought being completely separate would be the best, but it's not working for me. I hope everything is working out better for you than for me, please remember that it's funny how people change.
-Brian
Wow, please don't read that and think my life is a mess, because it's not really that bad. And while most everything I said up there is true, please don't feel the need to answer every question. I just want to understand you and me. Does that make sense? Sorry for being awkward.
i will respond to you, however i dont have the time to be eloquent right now, but i will tomorrow.
Ok, thanks. Oh and maybe this is a bit weird right now, but I hope you have a great birthday.
i cant say i dont have an"ounce of feeling" for you brian, i will always have feelings for you. always. no matter who i date or see, there will always be brian. absence does make the heart grow fonder, especially because of what we shared...i wont lie, i was freaked out for a while....but i cant say im not guilty of giving in to desires myself....so who am i to judge? i know your on break. give me a call sometime. im not saying i want anything out of us...but seeing you would be really nice.
thanks for the happy birthday :)
Well that makes me feel a lot better just knowing I'm not completely alone on this. Again I apologize, but enough of that. I will be up in albany Tuesday, I am applying for a job at the post office up there, hopefully so I can live there year round. If you want to go out, get some coffee, walk the mall, just let me know what you scheduals like that day, or any day except thursday, and I'll give you a call tuesday. I'm going skiing with my mom thursday, just like we used too, should be a good time. So let me know on here if your free tuesday or whenever, and we'll see what's good. Hope number 19 was memorable.
hey dont take this the wrong way. but after seeing the picture with you in the blue (ya know the new one) i realized how pretty you are.LIKE I MENTIONED BEFORE! and ur eyes? woooo. and sorry for being a prick about my hat but its a hat thing u you'll understand later. but im thinking next time you see me or the next time your on Facebook approach me! and we will have to schedule a "play date" okay, gorgeous ciao ;
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Geoffrey Phelan and
You
Geoffrey Phelan
1:27pm Feb 6th
18 wins. 1 GIANT loss. PERFECT SEASON : D ahahaha
Geoffrey Phelan
2:18pm Feb 7th
where have you disappeared to???
lemme guess...you lost your phone/it died/you had to do something today for your parents/or/you feel like you're corrupting me...it has to be one of these : ?
I honestly don't care about not hearing from you; because the situation is tough...Monty being one of my best friends, me->not single : /...I've never done anything like we did the other night. And it's hard to think of myself as the proverbial asshole boyfriend. but i sorta became it the other night. Nevertheless, it was the best love i've ever had and i'm talking about with you alone. It didn't even phase me, that Sherilyn was right next to us lol... but please don't think of me as a cheater or an asshole because I really am not. I honestly have secretly liked you ever since sonshine. but, it was like "you were Monty's girl". but you're awesome and fun personality that I got to know that weekend made me tell Monty how much of a catch you are...i was so attracted to you when it was monty, you, and me all hanging out, sleighriding, telling stories, playing guitar...but you know how guys are...A guy can't go after the girl his friend likes or else that causes trouble with their friendship--> and then recently, seeing you at my house, how drop dead gorgeous you still were and how l was having so much fun with you hangin out. Honestly, you are irresistable to me. Jut like Cameron Diaz ; P (who was like my favorite hottest actress growing up..ever since i saw There's Something About Mary and my favorite Charlie's Angel). but anyway, the night Sherilyn was roofied i still had such a crush on you even before we got her to come out to the car with us. I never meant for that to happen with her obviously, but I'm really glad it did, now that I know we saved her from something terrible. seriously, you're a great girl and you deserve a great guy, i can say i'm a great guy only 95% of the time. that 5% was me cheating on Megan plus my other flaws. but i did it because I knew what you are worth {esp. being that you're a Christian girl}. So all in all, you deserve a guy who is great 99.9% of the time. In conclusion, I'm not saying that it was okay, but hey, at least I'm not married - (it could be worse)...K now i'm gonna call it a wrap. take care. God Bless. G'bye sweetheart ; *
P.S. tell Sherilyn I'm sorry for not going back to her so she could have an O. Guess i was too concentrated on pleasing you aahahaha
I understand that I'm too late and please believe that I do not want to cause any trouble, I just feel that I need to tell you the truth. I'm crazy about you even after all these years, even though you probably never gave much thought to me. I realized a long time ago that we had a strictly friends relationship; recently, however, I thought we had both matured enough for the possibility to be opened up again. I had hoped you felt the same way towards me. I feel stupid saying all of this-through FaceBook no less-in an internet message, but I don't know how else to get a hold of you. It just that when I saw that you had gotten a boyfriend, I realized that I had never stopped caring about you. Again, I am not trying to cause trouble, I just needed to get this off my chest. I hope we can still talk and be friends.
Sincerely yours,
Tim
hey..so sorry i didnt get back to you sooner, i just didnt know what to say. I am really flattered that you think so fondly of me and im really glad that we are friends. unfortunately things didnt work out between my boyfriend and I and im not really looking for another relationship. thanks for letting me know..and of course we can still be friends! :)
Fondly,
Heather
this is my favorite letter of all time:
Ive known you for roughly a week and a half. From the moment i laid my eye(s) upon you, i knew i had found something wonderful, something enchanting, something i can't quite put my finger on or in. I was a fool to allow Nicholas Demetriades to step foot in front of me and be the big man and step up towards you because you are an attractive female. I feel as if our love was strewn apart and tossed away like a bouquet at a wedding ceremony, only to be caught by Nicholas and to be taken away to a land far away that we can only dream of. Remember when we used to sit in Noah's couch and dream of our future life together? I was too pussy to come forward and tell you that i loved you. I feel like an Ethiopian watching a donut roll down a hill when you and Nick are together. I feel like i am way out in the bleachers and you and nick are on the field playing the game whilst i watch. I cannot express how stupid i feel now that i am writing this in a facebook message, writing our whole life story ( of 1 week ) in a short message only to be seen by your eyes. I miss those eyes Heater. Couldn't you feel the love between us when we would read 50 year old GILFS together? I will now write out how my life changed since i met you.
DAY ONE. ( BAND PRACTICE FIRST DAY ) I walk up the stairs of the Bartfield residence and as i reach the top, an almost godly figure sat behind the keyboard playing away as Nick attempted to flirt with her. My heart was beating so fast by that moment, that my face began to become as red as the wine you gave to me last night to lower my inhibition. I was so nervous to be around a figure almost as heavenly as Jesus and Buddha themselves, that i forgot to say hello to her, until her angelic voice exclaimed " Thanks for saying hi to me Ben!" A fool i was! Complete dickweed, how could i forget to greet such a beautiful woman such as herself when i first laid my eyes upon her!! I turn my back and let out a pitiful " hi there ' as i walk down the steps to gather my musical gear. I made sure to carry the most stuff to impress her, but i began to realize that she didnt notice that, as she was utterly and completely entranced by Nicholas' melancholy guitar playing.
During the practice, her sweet soulful voice opened up a new dream in my mind, and it made my whole life feel peaceful and calm.
Day 2( Second Band Practice)
Heather seemed to show up to practice late this time, but i could not care how late she showed as long as i could just see her again. I memorized everything that she wrote in her facebook, including how she looked in all of her past pictures. Call me what you will, but when you meet someone of her stature you will also realize that you cannot keep away from them.
During this band practice, Heather and I seemed to share one thing in common. Our keyboardist is a creep. He seems like the type that would write girls long letters on facebook telling of a jouney throughout thier love lives.
Heather my love. I would finish this, but my mother calls me to my upstairs chamber to go to bed since it is 1 hour past my bed time
Written with complete love from the trenches in the deepest of my heart,
Benjamin Thomas Zeigler
